Dad when this candle stops burning your headstone will be up and everything final except one thing and that thing that will never be final with me is you not being here,ive got my own beliefs as you did, mines are very different though but i think count the same,ive not had a sign from you since winning the scottish national as you well know i didnt bet on horses and that day when i found out i had won i knew that it was a beautiful sign from you , i need your guidance dad as i struggle day to day with your physical presence not here,but i know your with me and mum she needs you more as i worry bout her every day we miss you so much,i have to try and deal with things alot better for my futures sake and for everyone around me,pamela misses you to shes like you very much and can hide it very well wished i was more like that its a gift,iam lighting this candle and always will keep our light shining so very bright for you, kandie is doing great and we will keep a very close eye on her always making sure shes in good health,shes running about like mad like the old kandie you knew,dad i want to see you or hear you i will let you decide as i cannot but only hope love and miss you an eternity john and pamela x auf wiedersehen dad x