44days since you slept away dad not a tear has dried our eyes still cries, but in amongst the sighs and cries we can see you taking the betfred girls in hot pies and putting on another line only for your horse to lose and calling it a swine, dad right now we want to laugh as you said you think u backed a big giraffe,it could be the 2 oclock at ayr or ascot sitting watching it in your housecoat, with a fag in one hand and a half in the other if the horse doesnt win then theyll be bother,we know dad u like a good punt but you shouldnt have called the jockey a useless runt,dad we miss all these things you do and life is dull without you,one things for sure i can proudly say your spirit lives within us and never ever shall b away, loveyou my hero, my idol, my dad , my mentor, my world shall never b the same trying each day to come to terms with your passing away :: love you need you to give me strength dad as im struggling john .